The other day I was taking Logan for a walk when a middle aged woman saw my stroller and asked to see him. We talked for a moment about child-rearing, and then she said, "Don't blink." And I realized she was choked up! It really hit me. It's become my new motto - to just soak up every single second of being Logan's mom. Things that are easy to look at as chores, like trying to put him to bed or nursing, I'm realizing are treasured moments that I won't have long. It's our special one-on-one time, and even when I have more babies I won't get to enjoy these moments the same way I can now because then there will be other kids to need my time.
Before becoming Logan's mom I looked at being a mom as mostly just stressful. Though he has taught me how to worry on a whole new level, I also have come to understand what the church leaders mean when they say that no other joy can compare to that brought by parenthood. His smile is so healing to me, I can face the world when he smiles up at me. Logan is the most beautiful soul I can imagine, and I'm honored to have him in our home.
On another note, John is the sweetest dad you've ever dreamed of. He's completely smitten with Logan and teaches me by example every day how to be a good parent. I'm so grateful for him and how he's taking care of Logan and I.
Here's a video of him smiling like crazy. Maybe to anyone else it's just another baby grin, but for me it makes the world go around. Ok...cheesy cheesy cheesy....here's the video:
